Where are you, Adam?
When we are born, we are not born into the world in isolation. Even when we are in the womb, we are not alone. We are surrounded by our mother for nearly a year, surrounded by a warm body of water and the sound of a mothers heart thumping out love with every heartbeat. In my journey of trying to capture what it means to have a child’s heart in seeking the Father, I often think of the first years of childhood. Right now, I find myself imagining what it must have been like while in the womb. At time of formlessness; unformed language the most primitive language of movement, sound developing with a constant heart beat nearby, the hush of other sounds being filtered out by water and layers of mom all around. I wonder if at any point we are self aware, being able to distinguish between our self and the things around us. What is sure, we were not alone. All those things surrounding us kept us and spoke to us; the warmth, the heartbeat and the caress of the womb like a blanket, and the very presence of the Father forming us. Relationship started for us with these things for all of us.
Psalms 139:13 – You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
The narrative of creation for Adam is obviously different. However, the design that the Father had for relationship was much the same. One of the first examples of relationship that was designed into us is a basic need to not be alone. Relationship seems to be at our core of our design. Through our life we are presented with good times and bad times. The rhythm of life is one of mountains and valleys. I have heard it said that without sorrow, joy would not be as sweet. So, what comes out of the ups and downs of life is an eternal message, “You’re not alone.” Even for those who doubt the existence of God, there is no escape of the fundamental human needs. We are human, therefore, we have needs.
Genesis 2:18 – Then the LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.”
Adam’s first relationship was walking with God in the garden in the cool of the day. This is something they did everyday. Adam didn’t spend all his time walking in the garden with God. Adam was busy with tending to the garden as well as the rest of creation. During the busy times, Adams distance from the Father certainly were lonely times to some degree. Surely, Adam talked to God during these walks about being lonely when His Father was not near. So, God created a helper in life for companionship, a companion that the Father breathed His presence into to keep him company while they were away from each other. It is my sense that this loss was “the fall before the fall” and that it was apart of a longterm divine plan that eventually led us to the cross.
Genesis 3:8-9 – And they heard the sound of the LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God among the trees of the garden. Then the LORD God called to Adam and said to him, “Where are you?”
God, knowing all, knew of the fall of Adam and Eve into sin. God still came to the garden to walk with Adam, calling out to Adam, “Where are you?” Even in Adam’så disobedience, the Father came to walk with Adam. God was not the one to create distance, nor was He concerned with perpetuating distance from Adam. It is true in our lives too, we create distance with God and then we blame God for the distance. One of the ways we see this play out in scripture is that man wanted a King as a ruler and what God really wanted is to be our Father. It is in the subtle ways we create distance with God and we play shame games and like Adam and Eve, we hid behind the bush. We have to be willing to disregard our shame, brokenness, and nakedness, owning it, jump out from behind the bush and say, “Here I am.” I can think of no other simple example of salvation and restoration than just to tell the Father, “Here I am” and to listen again for gentle voice of the Father and make that the focus and purpose of our life. And to return that mission by telling others, “Can you see what I see? Can you hear what I hear?” Letting others know they are not alone.
Walking In His Presence,